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  • Child Loss,  Mother's Day without my child

    Mother’s Day Without My Child

    May 4, 2017 /

    I marked the date on my calendar months ago.  I’m feeling the pressing ache in my heart more and more with each passing day.  Mother’s Day used to be such a day of celebration, but not any more. This is the second Mother’s Day without my son, and the pain has grown increasingly worse with each passing day.  I keep telling myself that this is just another day, but that’s a lie.  This is Mother’s Day, a day is is supposed to be celebrated.  Instead, I’m facing it with a brokenness that is unable to be fixed!

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    Clara Hinton
  • Child Loss,  Explaining Child Loss,  How to Validate Your Child's Life after Death,  What to Say to a Grieving Parent

    “Why Can’t People Understand My Need to Grieve?”

    December 16, 2016 /

    My son died.  He died suddenly, without warning.  On that warm day in May, the lives of so many people changed when my son’s life on this earth ended.  He was the strong one in the family.  He was the oldest brother and the one that the others looked up to always.  He’s gone and our hearts are broken and life will never be the same again! It is now going on two years since Mike died.  Life has gone on for most everyone except his immediate family.  For us, the pain is real.  The pain is cruel.  The longing for Mike overshadows every day in a million different ways.…

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    Clara Hinton
  • Child Loss,  Feeling Guilty after Child Loss,  Symptoms of grief

    Keeping Score After Child Loss: Good Mother or Bad Mother?

    December 8, 2016 /

    It’s tormenting to lose a child.  I put myself through an emotional wringer every day.  It’s almost like I’m keeping score.  There is the good mother column and the bad mother column, and the bad mother column always has the higher points.  I know it’s crazy.  I know I’m punishing myself, but I still do it.  I remind myself over and over again of all of the missed opportunities I had to be a good mother and it’s breaking my heart.  

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    Clara Hinton
  • Child Loss,  Healing after child loss,  Symptoms of grief

    “Child Loss Changed Me Overnight and I Don’t Like the New Me!”

    December 3, 2016 /

    We’ve all heard the expression that a person turned gray overnight. Well, I didn’t turn gray overnight when my son died, but I turned into a different person — a person I don’t always like. Yes, my physical appearance has changed. When I look into the mirror the twinkle in my eyes isn’t there. My hair doesn’t shine any more. My skin has a strange color — dull, and has lost elasticity. In a word, I aged overnight. That’s what a broken heart will do!

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    Clara Hinton
  • Child Loss,  Differences with Male/Female Grief,  Explaining Child Loss,  Symptoms of grief

    “What I Wish Everyone Understood About Child Loss”

    August 22, 2016 /

    Nobody ever plans on child loss becoming part of their life, yet the sad fact is that every day children die and parents are left grieving the loss of their child.  This journey of grief is not an easy one.  In fact, this is the most difficult path a parent will ever walk.  The journey is long, lasting a lifetime.  There’s no way to get off of this road.  It is now the road that must be traveled every day for as long as a parent of child loss remains alive. My life has been turned upside down and inside out by child loss and like so many others I was…

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    Clara Hinton
  • Child Loss,  One Year Anniversary After Child Loss,  Self-Care after child loss,  Symptoms of grief,  Triggers of Child Loss

    July 4th, A Bottle Rocket Scar, and a Hidden Treasure Inside!

    July 4, 2016 /

    I looked at my foot closely as I continued to rub coconut oil onto it in hopes of softening the skin surrounding the scar.  That scar is now twenty-four years old and it still looks like it became a part of me yesterday.  Normally, scar tissue isn’t something that I would look at, but this scar is different.  This scar was given to me by my son Mike who died on May 22, 2015. I never, ever want this scar to go away because locked up in that puffy mess is a well-spring of memories that make my heart smile! 

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    Clara Hinton
  • Child Loss,  Honoring Your Child's Birthday,  How to Validate Your Child's Life after Death,  Sibling Loss,  Symptoms of grief

    “A Birthday, An Old Hat, and Unexpected Tears”

    June 27, 2016 /

    Tonight was one of those nights.  I went to Monday night yoga as usual, not really feeling any different than I had all day.  It was Monday, and time to get back into my work routine.  I ran into class a few minutes late, placed my yoga mat down on the floor and began to do the relaxation breathing.  I closed my eyes and began visualizing a beautiful beach scene when suddenly out of nowhere………I could feel myself beginning to shake from the inside and then it happened. Hot tears began streaming down my face. 

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    Clara Hinton
  • Child Loss,  Differences with Male/Female Grief,  Father's Day Without Your Child,  What to Say to a Grieving Parent

    What Can I Give a Grieving Father on Father’s Day?

    June 13, 2016 /

    I don’t remember much about holidays as a kid, but I do remember the first Father’s Day in our home after my young sister Carmella died.  My dad was never the touchy-feely type of dad.  In fact, getting a hug from him was a very rare thing.  I can remember two times when I got a hug from him. He hugged me at my wedding, and he hugged me when I was pregnant with my first child. This particular Father’s Day was going to be rough.  As a kid of sixteen I knew it.  I saw how terrible Mother’s Day was for my mom, so I was already bracing myself…

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    Clara Hinton
  • Child Loss,  How to Validate Your Child's Life after Death,  One Year Anniversary After Child Loss

    I Remember Every Detail That Made My Child Uniquely Mine

    April 21, 2016 /

    When each of my children were born I studied them for a long, long time.  I ran my fingers across the tip of their noses.  I grasped their tiny hands into mine and looked in awe.  I slid my fingers ever so gently across their heads leaning down and smelling that newborn baby smell.  I loved how each of their tiny feet fit into the palm of my hand.  These are just some of the things I’ll never forget.  A love as deep as a parent’s love wants to soak up everything about our child.  We even study the pores of our child’s skin! As our children grow older, we continue…

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    Clara Hinton
  • Child Loss,  Healing after child loss,  Self-Care after child loss,  Symptoms of grief,  Triggers of Child Loss

    Today I Found His Obituary and My Tears Wouldn’t Stop

    April 18, 2016 /

    Garbage.  Garbage.  Garbage.  I’m cleaning files at my office, and tossing out files from fifteen years ago.  It was getting late, and I was grabbing one more pile of papers to toss into the garbage, when I stopped — frozen.  I looked.  I stared.  As I began to read the words my tears began.  Tears poured from my eyes.  I began to choke on my sobs. There it was.  My son’s obituary from a year ago.  

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    Clara Hinton
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