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  • Child Loss,  Feeling Guilty after Child Loss,  Self-Care after child loss

    There is a Horrific Fear of Experiencing Joy After the Death of a Child

    July 18, 2017 /

    The first time it happened I was only fifteen.  My sister,  Carmella, died at the young age of thirteen.  I went into a state of shock followed by deep, unrelenting grief.  Back then people didn’t openly talk about grief so I was scared out of my mind.  I didn’t know what I was feeling, much less what I was experiencing.  My mother and father were struggling daily with their own grief.  I didn’t know what to do, who to talk to, or when this terrible fear and heaviness would leave. That’s when I began the cycle of self-punishment.  

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    Clara Hinton
  • Child Loss,  Feeling Guilty after Child Loss,  Symptoms of grief

    Keeping Score After Child Loss: Good Mother or Bad Mother?

    December 8, 2016 /

    It’s tormenting to lose a child.  I put myself through an emotional wringer every day.  It’s almost like I’m keeping score.  There is the good mother column and the bad mother column, and the bad mother column always has the higher points.  I know it’s crazy.  I know I’m punishing myself, but I still do it.  I remind myself over and over again of all of the missed opportunities I had to be a good mother and it’s breaking my heart.  

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    Clara Hinton

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