• Child Loss,  Healing after child loss

    How Do We Find our “New Normal” Following Child Loss?

    Following the loss of a child, we become familiar with the term “new normal.”  We read it in books, and we hear the term in grief classes we attend, from our Pastor, and many times we hear the words “new normal” from our doctor.  When I became a bereaved mom, the words “new normal” were words I held onto tightly.  Why?  Because any kind of normal following the loss of a child would feel good!  When child loss take place, there is nothing — absolutely nothing — that feels normal anymore! 

  • Child Loss,  Differences with Male/Female Grief

    Men and Women Grieve Child Loss Differently

    If you have suffered the loss of a child, then you know that men and women grieve very differently.  This difference between the way we grieve has caused much additional pain to a couple already feeling alone, lost, and often without hope.  So many times, a woman will shout out in despair to the father of her child saying, “You don’t care about this loss!  You don’t show any emotions at all.  I need you to hold me, to cry with me, and to tell me how much you miss our child!”  The father remains silent with a puzzled look on his face. 

  • Child Loss,  Explaining Child Loss,  Sibling Loss,  What to Say to a Grieving Parent

    I Will NEVER Forget What Happened the Day After My Son Died

    Child loss is traumatic.  I will always remember the phone call I received saying, “They tried.  They tried for over an hour, but they couldn’t save him.” I was in bed at the time I received that life-changing call, and I can remember letting out moans that didn’t sound human.  I’ve tried to hide that moment in the recesses of my mind, but I can’t.  That’s just how trauma works.  Every time the phone rings in the evening, I jump.  My body tenses, and I begin screaming out, “Please, God!  Please don’t let this happen again!”        

  • Child Loss,  Faith and Grief of Child Loss,  Stillbirth

    If You Have a Strong Faith, Will You Grieve Less During Child Loss?

    For a long time, I had the misconception that the stronger my faith, the less problems I would have.  I also believed with all of my heart that the stronger my faith, the more good things would come into my life.  I sincerely (and wrongly) believed that if I had a super strong faith, I lived in somewhat of a protective bubble that would keep the bad stuff away.

  • Child Loss,  How to Validate Your Child's Life after Death

    Why It’s Important to Talk About Your Children Who Are No Longer Here

    Have you ever noticed how much people clam up and will not mention a child’s name when child loss has taken place?  To bereaved parents, this is one of the biggest hurts of all.  What we need — what we’re wanting so desperately — is to know that our child has not been forgotten!  Hearing our child’s name spoken is the sweetest name we can ever hear!  

  • Child Loss,  Stillbirth,  What to Say to a Grieving Parent

    What (not) to Say to a Parent Who Has Lost a Child

    I am a bereaved mom. And, that is a very, very, very difficult statement for me to say.  Why?  Because that one sentence makes child loss in my life “real.”  I have suffered the pain of six miscarriages, one stillborn baby boy, and now most recently the sudden, unexpected death of my firstborn son. My heart is broken.  My grief cannot be described in words — only in feelings.  And, I know with complete certainty that my life has been changed forever. 

  • Child Loss,  Sibling Loss,  Stillbirth,  Uncategorized

    Child Loss: The Day Heaven Became Real

      I grew up going to Sunday School and reading the Bible and hearing stories about how great heaven was — no tears, no sickness, no night.  It sure did sound good to me, but it didn’t sound real.  In fact, a lot of nights I’d lay in bed and worry about dying.  I wondered if there really was a place called heaven or if it was just a made-up story — a fairytale told to make kids be good at night and fall asleep quicker.  “Dream of how happy heaven will be.  Just close your eyes and think about heaven.  You’ll fall asleep before you know it.” When my thirteen-year-old sister…

  • Child Loss,  Uncategorized

    Child Loss: Who Am I?

    When my son died I no longer knew who I was.  I was lost.  I felt as though half of me was missing.  I felt transparent to the world — like everyone could see right through me and see that my heart was broken and bleeding.  My mind raced and my tears flowed and I cried out to whoever would listen.  “Who am I? I don’t know who I am any more!” And, the truth is that I really didn’t know who I was when my son died.  Was I Samuel’s mom?  Was I still a mother?  Was I an ex-mother?  Who was I?  Suddenly my identity changed and there…

  • Child Loss

    Child Loss: I’m So Lost Without My Child!

    Twenty-four years ago I experienced a pit of grief like I never want to experience ever again.  My son died. The moment Samuel’s soul left this earth, he took part of me with him — a part of my heart and a part of my soul and I knew that those parts of “us” would never return again. I was lost.  And scared.  And felt so alone.  For the first time in my life I didn’t know if I could go on living.       

  • Child Loss,  Explaining Child Loss,  Honoring Your Child's Birthday

    Child Loss: How to Talk to a Grieving Parent

    Why is it that so many people think they know “exactly how you feel” when child loss occurs?  If I had a nickel for every time somebody told me they knew exactly how I felt after I lost my child, I’d have a stack of nickels a mile high. Truthfully, nobody knows exactly how a grieving parent, grandparent, or sibling feels after the death of a child.  I understand that people mean well, but it’s time they understand that those words shouldn’t be spoken — ever — following the loss of a child! So, what do you say to a parent who is grieving the loss of their child?  Do you…