I Will NEVER Forget What Happened the Day After My Son Died

Child loss is traumatic.  I will always remember the phone call I received saying, “They tried.  They tried for over an hour, but they couldn’t save him.”

I was in bed at the time I received that life-changing call, and I can remember letting out moans that didn’t sound human.  I’ve tried to hide that moment in the recesses of my mind, but I can’t.  That’s just how trauma works.  Every time the phone rings in the evening, I jump.  My body tenses, and I begin screaming out, “Please, God!  Please don’t let this happen again!”        

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When Does Healing Take Place after Child Loss?

Every bereaved parent has a burning question that needs to be answered.  That question is, “When does healing take place after child loss?.”  The pain following the loss of a child is so intense, so all-consuming, so life changing, that we are constantly searching for the answer to healing.  It is human instinct to do everything possible as quickly as possible to get rid of pain.  We long to feel healthy and whole.  We long to be able to be joyful in our living.  We want nothing more than to be able to smile and enjoy life to its fullest.

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Why Is the Grief from Child Loss Often Worse in Year Two?

When my baby boy was born still twenty-five years ago, the grief that I felt was impossible to explain to others.  There were days when I could not move from my bed.  Eventually, the grief seemed to soften a bit, and life felt “okay” for a time.

Then year two came along, and I was knocked flat with crippling grief, only this time it was much worse and I couldn’t figure out why I had this much grief hitting me so hard again.

Just recently my adult son Mike died very unexpectedly, and my heart was ripped apart.  Shattered.  Empty.  Lost.  Feeling so alone.  And, knowing what is ahead in this journey.

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